Beauty & Vulnerability: Part 2

Attachment, one of my greatest obstacles. As I sit here in Cabo I cannot help but feel so alone, so disconnected. Although most people would call me independent, I am interdependent on my surroundings of familiar faces, a language that I call my own and time that is not reliant on others.

I wanted to delve deeper into this idea of vulnerability, savasana and seeing the beauty in it all. Being in Cabo right now is so amazing and I am so blessed and fortunate to be here. It does make me feel very alone, very independent and super involved in work these days. I love all of the things I have mentioned and have worked very hard to be where I am sitting now. Savasana brings up so much in me, it takes death, puts it in your face and says "Are you living the life that you were destined for? And why not? What is stopping you?"

Our lives are spent putting up walls, to tear them down and build up more. In death you have no resistance, no walls to build up and nowhere to go. When we lay on the ground, with eyes closed and in a place of meditation, we reconnect with our greater plan, find renewed strength and inspiration. Savasana for me is a time to check in, to ask myself if this life is my selfish desire to be someone or am I destined to go out there and be a leader, I ask myself, what must die for the greater purpose in me to be fulfilled?

When ego and greed are surrendered, the struggle for fulfillment lessens. Life takes on a whole new meaning. But daily I find this a test. Daily I must die to my selfish desires. Do I let the world and all it has for me consume my thoughts, how I spend my time or do I die and allow myself to give way to a higher purpose? I want to surround myself with people who help me stay on that path, that remind me who I am, where I want to go and what I desire to fill my life with. I crave healthy food, healthy friends and when that is not happening I am not operating at my highest potential. Don't be one or the other, eat clean food, exercise and sweat, then go out into the world shining so brightly that the things of this world no longer matter.